dream a little dream for me

it seems that i'm barely posting anymore. i haven't got my to say. .

i got an offer for huddersfield university, and leeds trinity :) so happy! 

i passed my driving test!

it seems like everything's going my way at the moment. . it feels like i'm genuinely beginning to feel happiness. . but i have this tiny piece of doubt which makes me think 'how long will this happiness last?' but for the moment, i'm juss trying to enjoy it :P 

i promise to try and catch up with all your blogs my lovelies! 

keep strong! ♥

rest in peace

my best friends granda was diagnosed with cancer 6 weeks ago. last saturday night we were out in a local club and my friend got sent for. her granda took a turn for the worst. we were all hangin on to the last shreds of hope. on thursday morning he peacefully passed away.

i'm gutted for her. her granda was one of the most lovliest men ever. he was a true gentleman. it's true. life's short. you don't know what you're going to face each day. we should really live for the moment.

rest in peace liam 

gone, but never forgetten ♥

Stressed and a mess

Appologies for not posting as often as I should, I have good reasons!

I'm so stressed. . I've had shocking headaches recently and felt so shit about myself I've barely had any social interaction with people. . A boy I'm textin offered me £10 to suck his dick. . ugh don't think so!

Headaches. . They resulted in several trips to the doctor, last of which was today. . They put me on beta blockers. . Not for heart conditions or that but for my headaches and stress. . Just hate that I'm on them :(

i'm so sick and tired of the way that the world works

i should be thinking my life is going so shit at the moment. 

• one of my best friends called me fat to my face infront of all the rest of our friends. i'm sorry if i'm not seven stone with the ability to eat a 7 take aways a week without gaining any weight. i'm sorry if the fact you think my minimal amount of eating only emphasises how fat i really am. i'm sorry i'm not good enough.
• i've been having real bad headaches for the past two/three weeks and all i want to do is sleep aswell as zoning out and going all weird when my head isn't sore. my mum watches everything i eat to make sure it's substantial. she makes sure i'm not excericising in excess. i've been to the doctors three times in the past fortnight and i've to go again on tuesday. it's really starting to worry me. :/
• due to above problem, i'm really behind on my school work. i have repeats in january, i have A2 in may. i have so much notes to catch up on because i keep missing class or when i'm in class i keep zoning out and feeling all funny.
• i had my driving test today. i fucked it up. reverse parking is a bitch. derek go fuck yourself you shitty driving practical examiner you smell like headlice lotion.

but for some weird reason, i dont give a fuck. i'm juss counting the days to i leave this shit hole and can be on my own.

Friend? HA!

It's shit when you find out what your friends think about you. . It's even shitter when your drunk because the words replay over and over again. . Ugh. . Sometimes I wish everyone had no friends. . Then you wydnt have anyone to let yoh down or upset you. .

All you ana girls, your my life!'

read all about it ♥

i wanna sing, i wanna shout, i wanna scream till the words dry out. so put it in all of the papers, i'm not afraid. they can read all about it, read all about it.

i've juss got a thinspo tumblr:
http://erinn-proana.tumblr.com/

i have a regular one. . if you want to follow me on my regular one, link me to yours and i'll follow you :)

she's better known for the thinngs that she does on the mattress

my school is full of so many sluts and tramps it's unreal. . but does it make me a bad person that i wish i was one of them?

i want to sleep around. i want lots of guys to tell me stuff like im pretty or fit, just so they can get in my pants. i want to be able to join in in conversations that my friends have about sex. i want to be the girl in the club that makes out with loads of guys in one night. i want to give guys the blow jobs i offer when i'm drunk. i want lots of guys to text me, telling me things i want to hear. i want to play lots of guys, pretend i'm interested when all i want is a fuck.

the only thing is. . i'm scared i'm becoming the person i've always detested. . why do i want to be a skank?