how do you get up from an all time low?

I've hit rock bottom. All I do is sleep. But I always wake up at 4 am crying. I'm miserable. My mum hates me. She tells me every day. She calls me a failure. Tells me I'm fat. Tells me I'm stupid. That I was the biggest mistake of her life. And I still want to try so hard to make her happy. I don't know what to do. My friends don't even like me anymore. They still talk to me. Prolly feel sorry for me. But I can tell the don't like me. There's something telling me that. It's not a voice as such, more like a feeling.

I'd love it if things between me and my mum cud be fixed. But they've been like this for too long. I would love to be able to smile a proper, genuine smile for at least 1 minute.

The bestvfling in the world

I went to bed AT 11 last nightclub . Woke up at two with the sharpest hunger pains ever. . It's now 6:18 am. . I need to get up for school in half an hour. . Despite being incredibly tired, I'm addicted to this feeling

Absolutely scunnered!

I'm actually so scunered. . If you don't understand what scunnered means I'm fed up. . Feeling hopeless and like I've not one purpose anymore.

I still don't have my laptop. . I'm not sure if I explained but my mum took my phone, laptop and iPod off me. . Bur I'm sneaky and took my iPod back. .

I can't wait for me to get my laptop back. . I miss all you lovelies!

-xe